My name is Margrit and I came to Germany some years ago as an asylum seeker. I applied for my asylum in Eissenhüttenstadt. During my stay in Eissenhüttensadt I shared a room with other asylum seekers from different countries. Before I was transferred to the next lager I started having complications in my body.
This did not bother me a lot because I thought the reasons could be change of weather, food and the stressful situation of asylum seeking. I thought these body changes and complications were because I have just arrived in the country and will go away as soon as I get used to them.
The pain grew more and I had to seek doctor’s help. I was met with shock as he detected cervical cancer and I couldn’t swallow the bitter truth that faced me; I got traumatised and depressed. My strength and hopes were dimmed since this was not my expectations and being in a new country and as a refugee was hard to figure out how my life will be.
I was transferred from Eisenhüttenstadt to a Heim and I continued with my treatment. On one hand, my schedule was in and out of the hospital going through chemotherapy. On the other side my asylum procedure was going on. Up to date, to handle both situation has been the most traumatizing and stressful thing in life. I don’t know my fate in my asylum procedure and the dilemma makes my health not to settle.
My immune system also got very low and I collected so many infections from other people because of sharing facilities in the Heim. This makes me from one hospital to another in Bradenburg.
This made the social office to give me a house outside the lager to see if the infections will reduce, since I am very weak. I am still under treatment and still waiting for the asylum seeking decision of my case. Most of the days, I am very weak, though the doctors keep on telling me to relax; it is not easy.
I don’t know if the decision of my asylum seeking case will be positive or negative and the fear of deportation, in my situation is always the greatest depressive and traumatising thing that never leaves me.
